Me: Unmitigated Disaster...

Wow, so much has happened since the last time I blogged.

For instance, I thought I was gonna go certifiably fucking crazy. Things in Kentucky went quite wonky, with snow and ice and mud, and salt and general unhappiness. The dreary conditions almost made me feel like I was locked into my body and looking out with foreign eyes. I was really depressed. Add that to the fact that I really hated what I was doing (wards in January, being tired) and you had a bip2 that was ready to quit.

But I didn't. And two months later, things are still moving. I just finished Pedi Neuro which was a true clusterfuck if I've ever heard of one. More on that at a later date (or maybe not since I'm not doing as well with keeping this thing up as I would like.)

So I finally met Kevin. Big disappointment. We talked for about a year and there was a time where I actually thought we could be something. But he turned out to be quite a bit flakely and self centered so I cut him loose. My mental rollercoaster with Abe eventually resurfaced ideas of Kevin and me being together so I re-reached out to him and last weekend, I learned just how shallow pretty people can be. Not that Abe's not pretty...it's just that Kevin is more of what I thought I wanted. Heh, life's funny like that sometimes.

Now I love Abe more but I'm not sure that I'm in love with him mainly because there's this small inkling in the back of my mind that tells me "somethin' just ain't quite right." In the meantime, I'll enjoy his company and treat him like the wonderful and amazing friend that he is.

I've also confirmed my calling. I love camps. Just can't get enough of 'em. Over "spring break" I helped run bereavement camp and it was a huge difference from just being one of the counselors. I have to admit, it was less hectic than I thought, but I do regret not having as close a relationship with the kiddos as before.

That's all I'm going to right for now. Except for the fact that I've now become a fan of Wheat Thins from those long nights with Jan and Lindsay...