Lordamercy...
The emotional rollercoaster that love takes you on is always changing and turning. I'm glad I wasn't overly naive as to think it'd be smooth sailing, but I was still naive enough to not realize how tricky it could be.
Luckily, I'm with a great guy who seems to love me as much as I love him. The only real hard thing for me is what to do with his situation.
I know that "everyone has something" that they have to deal with, but I've specifically kept as little baggage around my waist as humanly possible in the hopes of finding that someone. I don't like to burden others, per se, so I keep it light.
He, on the other hand, has some big conundrums to deal with and I want to help him, but it's one of those things that if I help him and push him either here or there, he could easily resent me for years to come. And I don't want to be the endpoint of something that could lead to righteous fury.
So in turn that means I must wait. I must bide my time and bite my lip, though there are lots of things about it that make me jealous and sad and happy and torn.
It's a cluster, to say the least.
But he's worth it. He's really worth it. A guy of this caliber doesn't come along often.
*sigh* what to do, what to do...
“I’m the one asking you the questions, Lorna.”
2 years ago
