Gay: Old Year, New Year...

I just looked at Michael's picture and broke into tears...gosh, I've never been this caught up in ANYONE. Yeah, when Reedo didn't reciprocate, it sucked but I didn't cry. And Abe and Mitch didn't result in crocodile tears. But with this guy, he did a number on me. I've never let myself fall for anyone; in fact, there was a time when I let myself think that we'd be working to build a future together, looking at houses and thinking for two. The ability to come home to a home cooked dinner. To share with him the goings on of the day. To sleep beside him in bed while he was recovering from an exhausting day.

I miss him so much. And all I want to do is be angry and hurt him like he hurt me. But I know it won't mean a thing in the end and I should really work to move. God this is hard. I'd even invisioned him meeting the parents...this sucks soooo much.

I will move on. There will be a tomorrow. But I have to admit, I don't konw how to....only time will tell.

As for the new year: it has to be better than 2007. Someday I may sit down and try to type out a "year in review" but for now, I'm completely unmotivated. :(

Heaven help us all...