Gay: Relapse...

Ay yi yi...

So I've found myself back on the Meatmarkets but not as intense this time. Do I find myself spending countless hours on there when I have other stuff to do?

YUP!

Have I in turn founds tons of people I should not have an acquaitance with?

YUP!

Do I feel guilty that I've backslid?

YUP!

But have I let it throw me into a shame spiral where I started hating myself and thinking that no one wants me?

Not yet....

I think that's in part because I'm going to Chicago, to light up the town as best I can. Another part is knowing that my old boyfriend wants me back.

There's a bit of haughtiness that I can derive from that which will help bolster whatever shortcomings I have in self esteem.

Now back to the job of weaning myself from this addiction...