Professional: Rehashing...

My new supervisor rocks!

No one at work understands why I feel so fervently about not doing some one else's research because it goes above and beyond simple scutwork. It's because I don't trust any of these people to get my back if the going gets tough.

When I explained all the back story to my supervisor, she sat in abject horror. Before I left, she apologized on behalf of everyone in the department for what happened at the rank meeting.

It was one of the nicest things anyone has done for me since I've moved up here.

But I don't know how to proceed. I went to the Psych Dept Chair to basically lay out my perspective and feelings for him and it went all kinds of screwy and basically came down to him getting pissed that people aren't doing what he wants them to do and me getting pissed because no one seems to give a shit about how residents feel doing this work.

So it was a stalemate.

But the next move...what to do? Should I submit the letter and go on strike? Should I instead do more reconnaissence? Should I go ahead and call the ombudsman? Should I talk to the Dean?

It's turning out to be more complicated and harder than I imagined but part of that may be because I'm tired of fighting. There's a part of me that wants to be done with the whole sha-bang and just put my nose to the grindstone and become the best child psychiatrist out there without worrying about what the people think of me. This would entaile me retracting myself from everything that I'm currently doing that is affiliated with the university. And this would be passive-aggressive.

My friends say, "choose your battles." I say, the battles are coming to me but I don't know how to choose. Maybe I should just ignore and they'll go away...