So I broke up with Jessie'sGirl. He was a nice guy but I'm just not ready to date. I was actively trying to put myself back together, get in better shape, start looking for other things to hold and keep my attention when he ran across my path. I actually feel bad that I allowed us to get as far as we did, even though in the grand scheme of things, it was only two weeks.
He seemed to take things okay, though you never really know how much damage you do to a person when you abruptly step out of one's life like I just did. It wasn't so much a "me trying not to hurt him" thing, but instead, more of me knowing more about myself and knowing that sooner or later, I'd find some stupid reason to break up with him.
I often wonder if indeed I am destined to be alone; only time will tell I guess. If I'm 40 and still writing these words, then we'll have our answer.
Until then, I shall spend time doing those things that make me like myself and hope for a better day. For instance, that means me spending more time working on the novel, studying for boards (both peds and psych which I will now take) and simply improving myself. Let's see what happens!!!!
“I’m the one asking you the questions, Lorna.”
2 years ago
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