Me: Fight the Feeling...

So I am actively fighting against finding a boyfriend.

Alot of my day is consumed with thoughts of him. What he looks like, what he does for a living. It's really pathetic and I can't seem to shake it.

Even when I purposefully don't think about it, I think about it. It's a negative spiral that only ends up with me feeling worse. I know...sad.

I'm actively trying to plan my DC trip (a week away) so that I am living in the moment and NOT spending time trying to go to less than savory places. My goal is to experience D.C. as a tourist and I'm going to accomplish that even if I'm a lardass at my casa away from my casa.

Rose informed me that interracial couples there aren't looked upon kindly as it is. Lol, I wish that would deter me but of course it won't. But then again, I'm not looking for love.

I will continue to repeat this mantra daily until after vacation is over with.

I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking, I'm not looking.

There, I feel better already! ;)