Gay: Proud Family...

So the plan was to come out to Daddy today (this break) and I find it amazingly hard to do so. Partly it's because there're always a gajillion people around. The other part is that I don't quite know how he will immediately react.

I don't really care about "disappointing" him or how things will play out in the long run. Hell, if he hates me, he'll hate me regardless and there's nothing I can do about it. But I don't know what his face will look like when I tell him. Or what he will say.

I've been wavering back and forth about this since I came. I knew that I wasn't going to let him in on this the first day (that's alot to ask) and I committed to the second, but it's already night and I'm balking, thinking that I should let him know right before I leave.

Truth to tell, that might be the best option, though it will be on a Sunday, his day. I can't tell him before church because I don't want that on his conscious while he's living with Jesus, but I do want to let him know before I hit the road because I'm all about telling people face to face.

S'funny to me that people don't see it and I'm always surprised with those who are closest to me that they couldn't surmise my sexuality. Lol, maybe the eyes really don't see what they don't wish to see.I don't know what will happen tomorrow...we'll have to wait and see. But just in the course of today, I've been asked about a girlfriend/wife at least 4 times. And each time I'm forced to either warp the truth or blatantly lie and I HATE being put in that position. I hated it enough to tell Momma and Dana. Maybe I'll let Daddy, KeeKee, and BD all in on it tomorrow and see what happens. :)

Whatever the case, I know that I have friends in Lexington whom I can trust and lean on if/when the maelstrom hits.

Le sigh indeed...