When will it happen?
There's an event going on in Lex for gays and lesbians to protest the passing of Prop 8. I was invited via Facebook by a guy that I went out on a date with. He's fantastic but there's not anything there as far as romantic relations.
Anyway, should I go? What if there are cameras? There are also bound to be other gay men there, both single and partnered with whom I can become acquainted....Should I make a statement?
The answer to the latter is that I should and I feel compelled to do so because soon, it'll be me (hopefully) who can't get married. And I'll be pissed about it. So in preparation, I should be the one standing up and doing interviews. But I'm not that strong....or at least I don't feel that strong.
It's times like these when I wish I had a therapist or a role model or mentor with whom to talk and share these thoughts with.
On another front, what about me just "coming out" on Facebook which I still haven't technically done yet...though I have plenty of things that link me to the gay world. Part of me wants to go through and temper the access of those people who don't really need to know, but I don't want to give off the flair that it's a big deal because it shouldn't be. Notice that I put the "shouldn't" in there. :)
That's because even now, though I'm trying to be open and honest with myself, being completely out is still an issue for me. Because there are times when I'm still trying to figure out just how hated I can be in the eyes of others.
Sometimes I do wish I were straight...but I love men. I just do. Viva the Gays! :)
“I’m the one asking you the questions, Lorna.”
2 years ago
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