Me: Update...

Lots of stuff has been going on, so here're some highlights:

1. I'm seeing a therapist! She's fantastic and I must admit, it's nice to learn how others do therapy outside of the residency. It's also very uncomfortable revealing some of these things sometimes...for instance, the "I'm special" thing...yikes! But I look forward to going.

2. I'm getting regular massages: I figure I might as well keep working on releasing tension in these crazy stressed muscles of mine. Yeah, it's expensive but like Dr. Burns said, "it's worth every penny."

3. I'm negative! So I found myself back on the MeatSites (yeah, men are weak, what can I say?) and ran across a guy that I thought was decent. Turns out he wasn't...cue 2.5 months later, I'm nervous...but lo, HIV results are negatory! Even doctors make mistakes sometimes...

4. I'm procrastinating more than ever! Sometimes I just feel so overwhelmed...which is sad, because this semester, I have more time than ever, yet I squander it away as if I'm "really busy." Maybe it's just my depression.

I'll write more later and more often because everytime I think about getting on an online dating site, I am going to chide and force myself to come here and right? Do you think it'll work? I dunno...let's try it and see!