Professional: Research...

So one of the wondeful requirements of our program that I learned of AFTER I had come here, is that I have to complete a research project.

Of note, I've always hated research because research uses statistics and I learned a loooong time ago that you can get statistics to "prove" damn near anything. Small aside; the idea of "meta-analysis" is inherently flawed...never trust a mega-study that tries to minimize the confounds and biases of the individual studies that make it up...just won't work according to my statistics training back at the Barber College o' so many years ago.

Anyway, in my zeal to boost my self esteem and ego, I applied for national scholarship that requires research. Yeah, I know: what the hell was I thinking? At the time, I was thinking that I needed something to prove that I'm not just a worthless piece of shit that no gay man, apparently, wants to date. :( Now that I've gotten the award and have realized that I must be the best person I can be for myself, I'm stuck with creating and completing a research project.

Good: I can kill two birds with one stone.

Bad: I need to start the fucking thing.

And the project I wish to undertake will be performed out of state, will require IRB stuff, and tons of energy and follow up.

So I need to start 3 weeks ago :)

Let's just say if I can pull this motherfucking thing off, it'll be a major feat and major contribution to the field of psychiatry and chronic illness in kids...