Luke and I didn't make it over our first major hurdle. Lol, he hit it and decided to take some time off the racetrack. I wasn't exactly ready to let him, but I realize I had to. :) I commend him for being the stubborn almost overly cold person he was during the breakup. To tell you the truth, he acted more in our best interests than I did. Because I couldn't stand to NOT talk to him.
But I'm giving up on that part. Note, I'm not giving up on loving him...because I can't stop loving him. But I've loved people before and in time, I forget them. I'll remember the faint good things but the romantic feelings will subside. I see that now.
I've learned alot. He taught me that I need to have a husband who knows how to cook and wants me as their sous chef. He introduced me to a wealth of music I would have not been exposed to. He taught me to let my guard down. He helped me reconnect with my ability to cry and to love myself despite (0r because of) it.
I'm going for my first job interview Monday; if everything works out well, I'll be possibly heading to Central Texas. How cool with that be! :)
I also have a nice friend who's been so willing to fulfill the need that Luke is leaving behind. So far, we're just friends and I have NO intention of dating anyone for probably the next full year. I'm beginning to enjoy single life again and it's not some "bane" to my existence.
Stand tall, bip2, and smile. God isn't finished with you yet. :)
“I’m the one asking you the questions, Lorna.”
2 years ago
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