Me: The Money issue...

I almost wish money didn't exist.

My latest "conundrum" is a good one. I stand to make a very good salary with this new job. Way above the 6 figures that I thought I'd be making. But I want someone to share it with. In particular, I want to share it with the person with whom I shared my "poor" times. Someone who understands the value of a dollar and spends it wisely. We invest and save appropriately but never allow ourselves to go without.

We care for our kids and their futures as well. We take trips. We enjoy life.

But he's currently in a personal crisis of his own. Which is why he goes out of his way not to talk to me. Lol, it he didn't care about me, he and I could be friends. But I know he feels guilty...hell, I feel guilty and I didn't really do much to mess this relationship up. Yeah, I'm pushy, but what else is new. :)

I'm scared of being out there and making money because I'll never know if I can trust whoever is around...unless they're making as much as I am. But how will I know they're salf of the earth kinda folks that I'd like? I'm thinking if they give to charity and volunteer their time, we're off to a good start. But we'll see.

Oh boo bear, why'd you have to go and have your (appropriately timed) midlife crisis right now? :) Love you and miss you something fierce!