Gay: Dating...Redux...

I don't know why but it feels like all I do now is talk and think about how much my life sucks without a significant other in it. I moan and groan about how inferior I feel or how I'm not cute enough to pull a guy when I know in my heart of hearts that I'm a great catch!

But is that true if you've been unable to catch or keep a man?

So I struggle with this and my self esteem takes a plummet. All the while, I make a great friend, to the point that others seek me out to ensure their own happiness. Not that I'm complaining; no, I love my friends and I have really really good ones. But I'm having a crisis of faiths no nobodys' business....The latest guy is a frickin' God. He's tallish, well built, educated, creative, musical, great teeth, amazing eyes, fantastic laugh, and overall good guy. I had the wonderful opportunity of spending hours in his presence. Granted, I met him on the MeatMarket website under more sexual pretenses but he seems to be okay with that. In fact, he still wants to be around me...but I dont' know if he's attracted to me or not. Honestly, I'm not getting the impression that he is...But yet I pursue him and faun over him and worry about him and what he thinks of me. Ain't that crazy? I've never been of that ilk except for when I'm ga-ga over some stupid guy who doesn't reciprocate like I think he should. Lol, the number of fellas I have fauning over me is slim but present, yet I don't like any of them. It's a tough call indeed.

So now I'm trying to figure out if I should move on or wait and most of me is saying "keep one finger in this pot" and also see what else is cooking on the stove. We'll see what happens...